today, after a 10-hour-workday, i felt bad for not preparing enough stuff to work on for the busride home.
just stared into space like everybody else did.
30 minutes lost forever.

the post title refers to work-related advice from a close friend:

“you don’t need to jump from tree to tree like a wild monkey, collecting every coconut you can find, fearing you could miss out on something otherwise…
you might end up having too many to bear, losing all of them and having to pick them up yet again. in short: you need to chill!”

i have to say: i do feel related to that monkey.

i think that far too often, i find myself taking my family for granted… even though i keep reminding myself that it’s very much not, and indeed something special.

so, in that spirit: i have the absolute greatest family i could wish for!

i’ll be more than 8.300 days old next week, and i’ve spent at least one 8th of the conscious-time therein babbling, dribbling and scuttling.
also, i’ve spent an estimated 1.5 years of my life eating, and more than 6 years sleeping.

i don’t regret the babbling, though. ;-)

what would you do if you figured out that you’ll never even get close to finishing all the things you’ve started (and will start)?

what would you do if you figured out that there is no calmer time coming up; that there will never be less to do?

why is there never enough time?
 

here’s a quote that seems more and more fitting:

oh well…

turns out this video by sarah mclachlan is more than 2 years old, but i think it’s really touching:

(apart from the fact that she’s playing a guitar in the video, and there’s no guitar to be heard.)

somebody recently told me that i seem to have “thawed”. she may be right.

staying in touch with friends seems to get harder by the day.

i now know for sure that sleep deprivation has a negative effect on physical strengh.

there are only a handful of occasions when i manage to switch off (as in “stop thinking”)¹. listening to classical music is one of them.

you know you’ve had to much vitamin c if you start nosebleeding everytime you blow your nose.

i did it: got anton so confused during a conversation (while still behaving serious) that he had a brainfreeze. :-)