noted down in early april, 2005

all that singing brought me back to a lot of pondering. and not the kind of “pinky, are you pondering what i’m pondering”…

i’m still of the opinion that my version of “the perfect choir” excludes me – which is kind-of tragic…
over the last few months i have hardly been singing at all, only at very rare occasions – and now i suck. i sort of degraded, vocally.

right now, i’m seriously contemplating joining a choir again, even though it isn’t perfect (because i can join…). but it’s close!

i’m not sure why i never published that post. probably forgot to…
so i DID join that choir in the beginning of may, and ever since, i sang at three masses. there’s a concert coming up on monday, and the schedule just keeps going…

still very enthusiastic!

isn’t someone, who doesn’t abide intolerance, intolerant themselves?

don’t get me wrong – i’m anything but advertising intolerance. i just tried to apply some logic… and we should call a spade a spade, right?

the following lines, taken from vienna teng lyrics, are so deeply moving (for me, anyway) that they keep circling in my mind ever since i heard them:

he said: “go where you have to,
for i belong to you, until my dying day.”
so like a fool,
blue caravan,
i believed him and i walked away
vienna teng – blue caravan
 

so i ask you to meet me tonight,
by the gardens we walk in the twilight,
the roses abound by your side,
i will hold you and let you decide.
vienna teng – abound
andreas sahar – abound (vienna teng covered it)
 

you’ve got a journey to make
there’s your horizon to chase
so go far beyond where we stand
no matter the distance
i’m holding your hand
vienna teng – harbor

 
i’m a little disturbed by how much these words, combined with vienna’s soundscapes, provoke in me.
besides, i’m so addicted to “blue caravan” that i hear marika’s chello when it’s totally silent around me.
that last paragraph was written in early april, when the webcast of her house concert was online…

yesterday, i attended the first rehearsal of the choir i’m joining. i really enjoyed it, looking forward to the next one!
it was about time i started singing on a regular basis again!

 
later that day it started raining really hard, but it still wasn’t chilly. kind-of the first summer-rain of the year. when the rehearsal was over around 10pm, it was pouring. i had to turn down a good friend’s offer to give me a lift home, so i could take a walk through the city.

it is sooo refreshing to promenade umbrella-less in a rainstorm.
there’s something so simple and original to it…

ok, this pattern was partly inspired by the movie “instinct” (you know, the scene where anthony hopkins realizes he doesn’t need to cover his head when it’s raining).
but once you try it, you’ll get addicted. or, at least, you’ll come down with a high-quality cold ;-)

i recently changed the virtual blog’s tagline (which is hidden here, anyway) from

to

although this is just geegaw, this “motto” pretty much reflects my current mood and fresh enthusiasm – caused by the cold-warm-cold-warm-cold-warm-…-pattern we call tyrolean springtime ;-)
i have nothing to complain about – currently, it’s getting warm again.

by the way: guess who’s number one in a google-search for “austrian guy”? hehe.

this happens a lot to me, lately:
i’m the “thinker type” of person, and i do think a lot. (the second half sounds so crappy and presumptuous, i had to add it! ;-))
everytime my intense contemplation yields a result – like another landmark decision, or just a little “a-ha” about certain phenomenons interacting – it doesn’t take long until i read about that same topic (with about the same attitude) on somebody else’s blog.
i am reading some blogs regularly, but not too many. and this effect only takes place on a small number of blogs.

this could either mean that we’re all just “thinking in circles”, with the same questions and basic fears rising again and again.
OR there are some people out there who are very very much like me, sharing my thoughts and arriving at the same conclusions as i am.
if so, there’s a lot i can learn about myself by just reading what they’re up to…